Full Moon in Scorpio: The Seed

I’ve been meditating on my body, bringing attention to places long swept away and discarded. In particular I have been getting in touch with the tension and tightness in my shoulders and upper arms. I try to push through it and they tighten up more, I accept it and the pain gets louder, like that area is breaching a wall and cannot push past. So as I breathe in I imagine and feel that I am breathing in spirit, light, fire, and as I breathe out, I maintain that lightness and feel it expand, past the point of comfort, not pushing but allowing more than me, lightness of me, to move beyond the boundary of skin, bringing my spirit into my body, like a hand inserting itself in a flat glove.

Then I thought about a seed and how it must feel like to be a seed, cracking open to become itself and that’s what I feel like right now in my body, pushing against my own walls, feeling constrained by the tightness of my own form. I have been planting a bunch of flats of lettuce and other vegetables, and its so exciting to see the little seeds germinating, tiny green tongues sticking out at me from the rows of dirt filled cells. It brought to mind the Zodiac signs of Taurus/Scorpio and with a start realized, the upcoming full moon will be in Scorpio on the 22nd of April. To imagine Taurus as a symbol of the shell of a seed, the form, encasing life, durable and hardy, cozy in the rich soul. While Scorpio as a symbol for the inside of the shell, desire for growth pushing at the shell, the soil pushing inwards, the feeling of constraint, tightness from all sides, hopelessly trapped, no where to go but up and out. Only way is to push beyond itself, to move beyond the form of seed, to TRANS-FORM, by pushing beyond its walls, cracking open itself to become more than seed and flourish. To expand and be bigger than the physical form, its spirit wanting to stretch and move, to twine and tangle, crawling reaching, flying towards the sun, heaven, and beyond.


Lunar Eclipse in Libra: I am You!


Lunar Eclipse in Libra for March 23rd 2016

Honestly I don’t feel like I know what this stuff means most the time. Maybe I’ll capture little glimmers of truth nuggets that resonate to the current astrological atmosphere, but symbols are archetypal which means they possess infinite potential meanings, as long as those meanings resonate with the energy of that symbol. So I’m going to attempt to free my critic for a little while and see what I can access by playing around with the energies activated for this Lunar Eclipse.

The moon is in Libra being eclipsed by Sun in Aries, which means the normal way of viewing others is temporarily eclipsed to show our true face as only one self. Everyone around us as merely mirrors to reflect back who we really are as One-Self. To play out itself through infinite characters in order to know our-self better, to have something to relate to outside our-self, to play out this complex beautiful painful adventure, all to experience love in its vicissitude of ways. The moon in Libra feels at home when it finds love reflected back to it in the eyes of another. This eclipse is about finding the courage to know who we truly are, without mirrors to define us. To seek out and know our true self that holds value just for being a witness of the tremendous life unfolding before us. To truly love one another, we must know what is worth loving and who we are loving. If we project our need for love unto those around us, where we desire nurturance of belonging, we get instead an insatiable hunger that fuels compulsion and addiction, spreading pain instead of love. To love another we must love ourselves and to love our-self is to love all selves.

Body of Mind

Sink deep into my body,

Allow the words to form,

Out of feelings from far below,

Tasting droplets of sweet silence,

That permeates the golden dusk,

Settling like a cloak, adorned with stars and

Midnight velvet,

Nestling around the hills,

Tucking the trees into deep slumber.

Settling life in for a calm night in,

The depths of our psyche,

Pulling us down, deeper and slower,

Until dreams awake inside of our bodies,

To create a wellspring of sweet stories,

To dangerous for the false blanket

Wrapped around our daily reality.

Cure for Your Loneliness

I am not a cure for your loneliness.
I can hold your hand, look in your eyes,
and let you know it won’t last forever.
But don’t try to drink me like medicine,
for when I run dry
you’ll toss me away,
looking always looking for a cure.

Don’t you see me,
really see me?
No, how could you,
you don’t even see yourself.
A mirror for your despair.
For you were shown,
in so many ways
that so much of you was unlovable,
not good enough, too rough, wild, impure, dangerous.

To squeeze into a box of acceptable,
you had to chop away at the “bad” bits,
just so someone would finally hold you, rock you,
show you in so many ways
how beautiful, how good, how much love you are.

But forever hungry,
a compulsive lover,
a hopeless romantic,
addicted to love, thrills, sex, drugs.
Make me high, fly me to the moon,
just take away the pain of loneliness.

How can I when it is you, not I,
that chopped yourself to bits.
If you really want to know about loneliness,
ask those parts,
they hold your pain,
and the loneliness is their voice
calling out for your love.

Sun Passes by Neptune Poem

I have no beginning or end,
I exist only now,
but now is all time,
held within absolute awareness.

To stretch a moment out
until the ocean of existence
is contained within it.
To feel eternity of self in but a second.

I do not depend upon
time’s stream to move about,
as all experiences are but interwoven layers
permeating the now.

I reveal the illusion of death
perceived through time’s movement.
Though every second is
an act of creation/destruction.
This divine play is but a repetition
of building anew from the shattered tower of
previous enactments.

Virgo Full Moon: Untangling the Inner Web

On February 22nd, 2016, the moon will be full in Virgo. To understand Virgo’s full moon, the reflected light of the sun in Pisces should be more carefully examined. I keep reading about Pisces as a sign of a state of blissful oneness, which I feel does not do justice to this sign at all. Where Virgo makes up the mundane world, Pisces is all that is invisible. As complex and varied as the visible, just not perceived with the senses. Because the invisible world has no “solid” boundaries, it could be easy to lose one’s separate sense of identity in such a place, but that doesn’t make such a reality a massive blob of oneness and unity. In reality it pertains to an infinite place of inner worlds, dreams, feelings, intuition, ghostly presences, mystical experiences, archetypal reality, images, symbols, etc. This particular sun will be conjunct Neptune in Pisces as well, adding potential confusion to who’s what in this imaginal landscape, perhaps getting caught in the web of someone else’s dream. Your understanding of reality, a potential labyrinth of fear and ghostly regrets, instead of the kind of world you might imagine you should be living in.

The moon is about our inner reactions to external happenings. So this Virgo full moon is highlighting the tangled confusion of each individual’s inner reality, which has muddled our ability to be able to carefully discriminate between fantasy and the imaginal reality of the soul. How often do we feel like we are only really living in a movie of our own making, everyone else cast as supporting actors, like our nightly dreams where everything is just an extension of our own psyche. With the light of this moon emanating from the opposition of a Neptune/Sun conjunction, it is an opportunity to use a Virgo-like eye of seeing how everything has its right place, in order to tug apart the ways we have allowed our psychic realities to become entangled with one another, allowing other people to act out our own internal stories and us to act out theirs. Now we are being called to acknowledge all our own characters, judge, victim, hero, lover, critic, nurturer, aggressor, coward, rejected shadow, wounded child, etc. in order to really understand what we are reacting to, and to discover just how much the external world is really the cause of our inner landscape, or how it is a shared place to truly connect with other souls and their psychic reality.

Lunar Eclipse: As Within so Without

Sunday at 10:47PM Eastern time, there will be a full Lunar Eclipse visible in the sky. The moon will be at 5 degrees Aries and the Sun at 5 degrees Libra. This Lunar Eclipse is revealing the outcome of the Solar Eclipse we experienced two weeks ago. However while the new moon began in Virgo, this full moon takes place in Libra/Aries. The extent to which we allow ourselves to examine our flaws and discover the divinity within the cracks of imperfection, has a part to play in the influence of this Lunar Eclipse. Simply put, this axis is about self versus other, the extent we act for self preservation and caring for our own needs, and highlighting our ability to meet another person and see in their desires, our own forgotten ones. The sun in Libra is illuminating the importance of developing fairness in relationship, the compromise of give and take, even the inner struggle of contradictions. Finding a place for opposites to co-exist in balanced harmony.

A time the moon has the most light, it will become dark, the earth will be between these luminaries and we will be in the center of this opposition, momentarily cutting the light of the sun off from the moon. Our habitual ways of letting our life force make its thrust outward, will be examined in the light of the ways that can stifle someone else’s self expression. To allow frustration of feeling impeded, allow us to not see that conflict arises when both parties are not getting what they need. To find a way of fighting for your own needs that doesn’t trample others needs, but includes them. A more encompassing development of selfhood that includes our opposites, be it people or bits of ourselves that we deem flawed and unacceptable for society.

Each degree of the Zodiac has a Sabian Symbol, an image that describes the quality of that degree. The moon is at 5 degrees Aries and the symbol is “A triangle with wings”. Quite a fitting image for a Lunar Eclipse. This image is revealing an added complexity to the normal contradictions and unification of opposites. By revealing a third element that transcends contradictions, allows us to witness the duality of self/other, from outside of our immediate experience of it. In this eclipse, the earth is standing in-between the sun and the moon, becoming the third element, point on the triangle, so to speak, that shows our very human capacity to find improbable solutions to seemingly impossible problems, to come to the irrational discovery of truly asserting “ourselves” back into the equation of human interactions, in order to lift us up into more fully developed beautiful relationships. We are getting a glimpse of how the opposition of self and other, within and without, are really reflections of one another. The harmony will come when we are able to glimpse the ways in which we deny others anger in fear of our own, discovering that balance ultimately comes, not from depending on people to fulfill our every desire, but from allowing ourselves to witness and accept our own self contradictions, thus awakening our inner unity. Higher self does not mean better self, but a self that realizes how we relate to people is truly a mirror of our own inner dynamics and owning all the parts of ourselves is what will allow us to truly fly.